I believe a dream is a wish you make with your heart ;
Second Time Around You



Navigations are Second, Time, Around, You.

---- Best view in Google Chrome, 1280 x 800. ----

much a difference made.

Saturday, October 24, 2009 Saturday, October 24, 2009



Finally let my hair down for a while, had a haircut.
I still feel pretty much down now but have managed to cheer up.
Things aint much a difference from around mid of 2009.
"im a failure" - this thought always stay.

PTM counting down in 6 days.
NCO counting down in 9 days.
Cruise counting down in 20 days.
i dont know why did i even bother to do any count down.
Firstly, how shall i explain to mom & dad?
I see disappointment in their eyes, no doubt.
Secondly, i haven't memorise the scores yet.
Oh yeah, waiting for pig to save me uhs.
Thirdly, what is expected of me when sailing on that monster to nowhere?
idk. :/

-

Eunice told me you're just being selfish.
Maybe she's right, totally right about you.
i child myself for not being able to see that point during sec 1 year.
"what a fool!" - seems to be showing from your face each time i look at you.
i dread to hear the word, sorry, from your mouth.
you just dont mean it hahs?
How many times did i asked myself to test your trust but in the end i still didnt do it.

Mr. F, you're right.
i live on a rollar coaster all my life.
one moment, im up almost touching the sky.
the next, im down close to the ground.
This must be why i dread living my life.

LELONG! LELONG! LELONG!
YANHONG'S LIFE FOR SALE?
SEAT NO. 36 IN CLASS 3E5 FOR SALE?
BAND MAJOR POST FOR SALE?
THE PLACE OF ELDEST DAUGHTER IN SU FAMILY FOR SALE?

all above for F.O.C
i doubt people even want my life.


im not gna torture myself any longer.