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I dreadThursday, July 30, 2009 Thursday, July 30, 2009 I dread going to school.I dread speaking up for myself. I dread making them understand. I dread explaining. I dread taking the raps. I dread turning my watertap on. I dread being at my wits end. I dread not being able to rewind time. I dread life for being so miserable. I dread looking at you right in the face. I dread talking to you. I dread hearing the horrible truth. I dread the word "betrayed". I dread stopping&waiting just for you to change. I dread chances. I dread being another person. I dread hearing crazy&wild laughter especially when i cant do it. I dread, I dread, I dread When can i stop all this? Basically cant stop my watertap after the committee meeting this morning. Its just all screwed up/spoil. I just dont seem to turn it off. There's like a few drops coming out every single second. I dread myself for doing that. I know i got to be strong but i cant help feeling that life has been unfair to me all along. The sour feeling just spins up & everything happened. tears; tissue papers; people; comfort words; all came to me. Is this what its suppose to happen whenever there's a crying scene? I tried stopping it, i tried. But it still happened. Wish that someone take my tears glands out. Im making a whole truck of mess in front of my whole class & Mr Fong. shiqin even offer to be my punching bag. hahas,thats put a smile on me for the first time of today. Thanks! :) Hmmmm, is the offer still on? I think i shocked everybody with my crying face. The crying just go on, non-stop. Then i started liyue, syafiqah & others watertaps too. Im sorry,guys. *smile* Big thanks to Illaisha, Andrea & Serene (big butt) for sacrificing their reccess time to listen to my nagging complaints about me screwing up 99.9% of my life. I shall never forget what your three has done for me. Your listening ears did me a great help. Thanks for trying so hard to make me smile since you all know i can no longer laugh. Though andrea said nothing but seriously I know she listens to what i said. Serene trying to cheer me up with our dirty little joke. *Biggrin* :3 Illaisha trying to share experiences to make sure i dont give up. Thanks! :D You three rock my Big b____s. (serene, you fill in the blanks.) & serene, the STICH above sincerely represent your big bu__. [: Thanks to many others alrighttt! Yea, jingyi, thanks for your msg. We will pull through it together. :} & ahyue babeeeee, You had been through together with me another down of my life. I rmb you being through every single one of my downs with me. You never fail to encourage me. You always try helping me in any ways you can. I appreciate all the things that you had done for me. {L} I decided to put a stop to the chances today. I cant find the connect. :/
I really hate this feeling maxxxx. "Smiling often can make you look & feel younger." ya right, i try uhs. :) |
